A Man Amongst Wolves

It has been years since the last blow-up or attempt to eliminate you. Times of peace brings optimism that things have changed or at least could change. You may be thinking that no one could hold onto a petty grudge indefinitely, can they?🤔 You have assisted on a few things, and contrary to their disposition against you, evidence shows you have made life easier for all of them. Although you were not their first or even last choice, your integrity never wavered. In no way have you behaved underhanded or deceptively. 

However, during your bid, all the accusations made against you were not only false but were an actual representation of the lives and character of your accusers. Unannounced to you, their dislike for you is closer to hatred than it is indifference. Bygones are not bygones, and they tolerate you in the most superficial way. A one-dollar Hallmark card has kinder and more genuine words for you than your accusers can ever muster. You make them uncomfortable, and they resent you for that. The truths you share expose them, and they hate for that too.

These people cannot look you in the eye as they fear that you may know too much of what they have said about you. Making eye contact with you is not a risk they are willing to take, for the eyes are the gateway to the soul and are the best indicators that someone cannot stand you. Every embrace is awkward. Should you shake hands, hug or do each other a favor and leave it at hello, you just do not know. 

One thing is clear, even in their darkest moments when they are struggling to hold it together, they always remember one thing, and that is that they do not like you. Your experiences could be hurtful if you believe acceptance is necessary from the people you occasionally have to encounter. However, the same truth that got you outcasted is what you will need to keep living with the appropriate boundaries that have brought you thus far.

Remember my friend, one foot in front of the other. You have your own family that at least consists of a few people who love you. You are not a prophet nor a savior. Sometimes you know the answer or an effective remedy, but that does not mean you share it with everyone you meet. It is okay to leave people where you found them, even if that is the pits of hell. Stay true. Stay honest and carry on.